pada suatu hari..

sempena hari ibu ku karang sebuah sajak untuk ibu..

aku berdiri di tepi jendela sepi..
memandang sunyi suasana alam..
hatiku hiba..
diriku merintih..
mataku bertakung dengan air mata..

ibu..
sudah lama aku di dunia ini..
menginjak umurku tahun demi tahun..
kini aku semakin dewasa..
terputar kembali kenangan di waktu kecilku..
membesarnya aku di bawah pautan kasih sayangmu..
terpeliharanya aku di bawah jagaanmu..



ibu..
kini aku di sini..
dan dikau di sana..
terpisah di antara dua benua..
jauh beribu meter..

ibu...
aku mencari sebuah kekuatan..
untuk terus berjuang..
meneruskan kehidupanku di sini..
walau terlau sukar dan penuh duri..
namun aku terus berdiri teguh..
kerana aku tahu harapanmu terhadapku..


ibu....
andai aku lemah..
kau tiupkanlah semangatku..
andai aku terleka...
kau bangunkanlah aku dari mimpi indah itu..
andai aku telupa..
kau ingatkanlah aku
andai aku jatuh..
kau pimpinlah aku..

ibu...
walau jarak memisahkan kita..
namun itu bukan penghalangnya..
kerna kasih antara anak dan ibu..
tiada batasan sempadannya..
tidak pernah padam dalam tiupan angin..
tidak pernah luput ditelan zaman..
tidak pernah malap walau ditutup cahayanya..

kasih ibu akan terus mekar seprti mekarnya bunga2 indah yang menenangkan hati yang memandang..walau ia akan layu pada suatu hari,namun benihnya akan terus bercambah dan berbunga dan kitaran ini akan terus berlaku selagi Allah mengizinkannya...begitu juga kasih ibu...akan terus tersemat di hati ini selagi mana roh berada dalam jasad..

cuba tanya pada diri?adakah anda sayang pada ibu anda?adakah anda sanggup berkorban untuk ibu anda sepertimana ibu anda untuk berkorban untuk anda??mengandungkan selama 9 bulan,bergerak kehulu kehilir membawa anda yang bukannya ringan bukan satu perkara mudah..hanya ibu yang benar-benar tabah dapat melalui rintangan ini dan bersyukurlah kerana anda sesungguhnya mempunyai seorang ibu yang sangat sabar dan tabah..


kadang-kadang kita terlalu malu untuk menunjukkan perasaan kasih kita kepada ibu kita..nak ucap sayang kat mak tu punyala malu tapi kat boyfriend ke girlfriend ker lain pulak ceritanya ya..sedangkan hakikatnya kita mengenali ibu kita dah terlalu lama berbanding kekasih hati kita tu..tapi inilah mentaliti sesetengah orang dari kita..salah mentafsir dan membezakan di antara kasih sayang sejati dan palsu..

sahabatku..
jika anda masih mempunyai ibu,hargailah kehadiran mereka...jangan nanti anda menyesal apabila ibu anda telah tiada lagi...walau menangis air mata darah sekalipun tentu yang pergi tidak akan kembali lagi..berbaktilah kepada ibu anda sementara masih ada waktu..sementara masih ada kesempatan yang terluang luangkanlah masa untuk ibu anda...

saya sendiri sering mengatakan pada diri saya"kalaulah masa dapat diputar kembali,tentu aku.......namun mana mungkin jarum jam dapat diputar kerana masa sentiasa bergerak ke hadapan dan harapan saya hanya tinggal harapan,namun saya pasti adanya pertemuan untuk kami suatu hari nanti..insyallah,Allah itu Maha Kuasa...

a sad day..

today i felt so sad..don't ask me why because i'm also don't know what is the cause...

it's just a feeling of being alone..
it's come deep from my heart...
it's made me lost my spirit..
my smiling face fade away..
my energy flew with the blowing of the wind..
i even can't concentrate in the class..
sad...sad...sad...

am i missing my family?
not that much because i just speak with my mum..
am i felt tired?
no,i had a good enough sleep yesterday night..
am i stress?
no,i had no problem before today...
am i felt frightened after the appoiment with the doctor?
emmm...maybe yes but only a little but this not affect me that much..

i'm hidden something of course..but i will not tell u because it's not important at all..i doen't think that this is the cause...only me and myself knew the secret..


as i asked myself a quite number of question and most of the answers were no,no and no i stopped asking..and my day become more gloomy and dull....

then,i remember a phrase from a song from Saujana entitled"Jendela Hati"

"aku ingin seriang kicauan burung,yang terdengar di jendela kehidupan"

i want to be like the birds..sing all around happily..
i want to be like the birds..fly freely safely..
i want to be like the birds..sleep peacefully at night..
i want to be like the birds..
i want to be like the birds...
i want to be like the birds...

but i'm more fortunately become a human with a mind...alhamdulillah...

لَقَدۡ خَلَقۡنَا ٱلۡإِنسَـٰنَ فِىٓ أَحۡسَنِ تَقۡوِيمٍ۬ (٤)

Sesungguhnya Kami telah menciptakan manusia dalam bentuk yang sebaik-baiknya (dan berkelengkapan sesuai dengan keadaannya). (4)

may i become happy after this day..:-)

Malaysian Day

Malaysian Day...
3 Mei 2008

I'm sure that when i said this word" Malaysian Day" most of us(Alexandria U students) will remember the great memories that we all had before this day is coming through...just for this day,many of us had a mild stress(just a guess for the minimum impact),some of us got fever,headache,flu and many other symptoms.

But,what i can see from my observation,all of us had show a very great effort..Semua orang sanggup berjaga malam bersengkang mata,sanggup berpenat lelah,sanggup berulang alik ke sana ke sini just untuk siapkan tugas yang telah diamanahkan...i'm very impressed to see all these...Thanks to all of u...


I can't ever forget the memories in Kak Nawwar's House when everyone bertungkus lumus menyiapkan the special flowers decoration for VIP which reached about 150 flowers.This flowers decoration which are resemble our national flower,hibiscus or bunga raya..Kak Nawwar n Zeeda named this flower as "hibiscus rosa sinensis"..such a unique and pleasant name i think..

suasana pada masa itu memang sangat meriah...
dengan gelak ketawa...
dengan cerita dari setiap orang..
dengan gelagat setiap orang..
for sure this happy time is very difficult to be repeated as after this everyone will be very busy with their study and i will miss this time...certainly...


how about the tentative??Fortunately,the tentative that already had been done before doesn't need to be changed entirely..Kesian kat MC yang berusaha bersungguh-sungguh to convince prof that this ceremony will be held successfully..It's not easy to deal with orang arab..haishhh...


then this is the flow of Malaysian Day ceremony today..

10.15-10.40a.m:arrival of students
10.45-11.20a.m:arrival of VIP(supposed to be the VVIP should came at least at 11 a.m.but
u know what happen already..huhu..
11.20-11.30a.m:silat
11.30-11.35a.m:National Anthem
11.35-11.40a.m:Doa & Al-Quran recitation
11.40-12.oop.m:Video about Malaysia
12.00-12.30p.m:Speeches from Principle,Dean,Dato' Duta,
12.15-12.40p.m-:Dikir Barat
12.40-1.05 p.m:Prizes Giving Ceremony
1.05-1.15p.m:zapin
1.15-2.20: Coffea Break and exhibition
2.20-.3.10:Nasyid
Kugiran
3.15:Meal provides and going back home


Although this not follow the real tentative(the time i mean),but i'm relived that overall before the Coffea Break)it's only late for about 15 minutes..Alhamdulillah...Allah never forget us..

Dikir Barat performance was very energetic with the spontaneous action from awok2...just like the scene when Hafizuddin sing the hindustan song"akhi kulli hoya hoban"...all of u had done such a great effort guys..I'm always awaited before this day come and what can i say that all of u were a best team...sangat kemelayuan dengan theme that all of u always said"kita angkat ketuanan melayu"


zapin..
sangat cute...very2 cute..with all the cute step and beautiful dance formation...heppi to say that i really loved zapin..

nasyid..
how can i say bad about this performance..they all very expertise nasyidians...although sometimes there is a few mistakes in tunes but nevermind..nasyid best!!!

kugiran..
although i doesn't like it much,but their performance was so good also...i'm just keep thinking it's not easy to play all that stuff...i mean with guitar,drum and other stuff that i didn't even knew their names...huk..huk..

the Malaysian exhibition..they made me more missing of Malaysia...with all the stuff about Malaysia how can my heart not even remember Malaysia..hehe...with that congkak,wau bulan,celebration in Malaysia,panorama in Malaysia,the wedding stuff with hantaran yang student gubah sendiri and others..


after all,i can said that i'm really satisfied with Malaysian Day today...although all of us were very tired but i'm sure all of u were very delighted and enjoyed it...your heart gleaming with the joyness right??said that i'm right..hehe..

But,never forget to say Alhamdulillah to our CREATOR that give us chance to feel all these..if He not allow us,we can never and never able to see,listen,moving all around and up down through the stairs or feel the joyness...

hope that we still can breath tomorrow...

wassalam bissawab.....